Two weeks ago we went in to find out the gender of our babe and were overjoyed to learn we will be welcoming a little girl to our family in just a few short months! Of course, tears fell as I imagined our son doting on her, loving her like nothing else in this world.
I have been feeling great for several weeks now, and for that I am so grateful. Other than the usual discomfort of my growing belly and those insane avocado and m&m cravings, baby and I are doing perfect. During this pregnancy I've gone through a range of emotions. From indescribable excitement to anxiety to flat out forgetting I was pregnant some days in the first trimester. I suppose it would be true to say it's taken me longer to connect with this one like I did with Wesley. The reasons for that, I am not sure. I'm assuming it has something to do with the quickness of it all, our move to a new home or the fact that I have a toddler to take care of in the midst of it all. But the closer I get to meeting her and with the constant movements I feel everyday, that connection has arrived and is growing deeper each day. And now, I can't imagine ever feeling like I didn't know her.
I think a mothers intuition is one of the most beautiful attributes we hold as women and with this pregnancy I've tapped into my own more than ever before. It's something that is a little hard to explain, and I never knew it existed before I became a mama. If I could sum it up in a word, that word would be truth. A feeling in your soul and in your bones that something is right (or wrong). For example, before seeing the plus sign on that test, I knew I was pregnant. As I sat and waited in my bathroom I realized I was only waiting to have physical proof, but the surety of it was already there. Then we've made decisions for our birth plan where my gut has told me what feels right, even if it's not what I originally had my heart set on. And again, before we found out the gender, I knew from the beginning that she was a she. I could feel it in my soul. Every thought or talk of her, I only saw a little girl. To find out my feeling was right has been so fulfilling.
I'll continue to thank God every night for trusting me with my children. Now that we have been given the chance to be parents again to another little soul, I feel what a honor it is to be trusted with these babies. We are over the moon to welcome a this sweet baby girl to our home and cannot wait to see the love that happens between all of us. This life of mine, it's a beautiful one.