(photos from a hike we went on Christmas Eve morning)
2014 turned out to be one of the most challenging years of my life. It seems like since June everything has felt either hard, confusing or stressful. Each year has had it's own set of trials of course, but this time I just didn't handle our ups and downs very well. I can honestly say I have never looked forward to a fresh beginning like I do today! I hold so much hope and optimism for the joy and goodness that will take place in the coming year.
I no longer write a list of goals to check off throughout the year, but instead simple try each day to be better than the day before. But this year I do have a couple of areas I'd like to work on specifically. The main one is to take care of myself more. I want learn to truly love myself. I want to allow myself quality alone time everyday and to develop my talents more in depth. And to not feel guilty asking for help. Almost every time I come undone as a wife or mother it's because my own needs are not being met. I have so much going on inside of me sometimes, but because I am a mama 24/7 it gets pushed to the side a majority of the time. I know that is part of motherhood, but I am realizing I need the balance. So my goal is to spend a little time each day working on and nurturing myself. The second thing is to be intentional about what I allow in my life. To let go of things or people weighing me down. To take action and charge of my experiences. The past year I have felt like a lot of things were out of my control, so eventually I stopped trying. I started letting life pass me by, merely surviving.
But that's why I love new beginnings so much. No matter how dark our days have been, we are given a gift each day to start over. And I am so ready to start seeing the beauty again.
Starting today, I am letting the past year go. I am opening my heart and mind to the possibilities that each day will hold. I'm allowing myself to feel and change and grow. So here's to making today and each day forward the best days yet.
Happy New Year friends! Thank you for being here and for supporting and loving our family in this space. We cherish each of you.